Seclusion

       This past week for school, we had to go on a retreat with almost half of the class. It was at a place called JH Ranch. It was 2 hours away from Redding and the drive was beautiful. It was one of the best encounters I have had while being here in California.

       One of my goals here at school is to finally strip away the layers, be transparent. I cover up my emotions and feelings and don't really let people see the real me. While there I had an encounter with my Father that I have never had before. I was completely open. Not like he didn't already know what was going on the inside but it was more letting myself be completely open to him and let him fix or change anything he wanted. I cried like a baby pretty much. It was amazing. That night my RG (Revival Group) pastor spoke. It was a night of healing. Not really physically but emotional. Being hurt from the past, the lies that we were told...everything that has be ingrained in us, it was time to get rid of it. Letting the father tell us how He see's us, how He feels about us. We are his daughters and sons. One of the great activities we did was CROWD SURFING! It was for people that have had any insecuritys in who they were. I didn't feel like I needed to go up, but later I was thinking of how much I love to be in control and so my act of showing Abba that I want him in complete control, I went and crowd surfed. I was not in control, I had people holding my body up and they were in control of where I would go. It was the best thing ever! 

This is just the beginning of this years process. 

(Me and some of the amazing girls in my cabin)