Welcome back to life

It feels like it has been years since writting a blog, it almost has been.  To be honest there was a lot of fear as to why it has been so long since I've written. A lot of things have happened in life and I believed many lies as to why I should not write any more, but we can come back to that.  Lets catch up first...

Well, I have moved to Sacramento, California with my sister! I moved from Redding to Sacramento in June 2014 and it has been such an adventure from there. Both good, bad, and worse have happened while being here. When we both moved we had no idea what Sacramento had in store for us. As soon as I moved I started working and quickly realized that my expenses increased. I had to get another job and began to work 18 hour days, four days a week. I worked one job during the day and a security job at night. I would get off from work at 6am and then have to go to my day job at 11am. This was my life for about 4months. No friends, no money, no social life, and no building community was able to happen. I was just surviving. During this time I was trying to figure out what life should look like as well as work on my relationship with my sister who I had not lived with for almost 3 years. Around November things definitely started to turn around. Someone told me about a job opening that was salaried, had full benefits, and was full time. It was an answer to prayers for me. I interviewed and got the job about a week later which was just before my birthday.

 Since then life has drastically changed. I have gotten a new car, new haircut, paid off debt, made amazing friends, and been able to actually thrive. Now that I am breathing again, I am going after the things in my heart. I have uncontrollable desire to be healthy in all areas of life. At the moment I am figuring out what exactly that looks like for myself. I want to be spiritually whole as well physically. With this I have had to realize that I have been believing many lies the past couple of months. When I wrote my blog about pornography I got a lot of feedback, which was great, but it also scared the crap out of me.  I started to believe that my writing was not good enough and what I had to say would be judged. In theses past couple of months I have taken some of these lies by the horns and am destroying them.

"If any situation is not glistening with HOPE, it is a lie."

So welcome to my process of life. Im back. =)